Candyce has been gone for almost three weeks now. Although I am happy she’s spending time with her family in San Diego, it’s getting annoying. I come home and have a whole evening free, and I have nobody to spend it with. Well, I do. I have dozens of good friends, but it sure would be nice to have a girlfriend again.

So I’m fighting the aloneness by getting projects done around the house. It started earlier this week, and I’ve made real progress. I finished painting my bathroom walls, and have moved on the cabinet doors. I’ll buy my hardware soon, then be ready to tile the floor. Then there’s my Civic. I know what rims I am getting, now I just have to find someone to lower it. I’ve been writing quite a bit for NoMoHo.org and PornDestroysWomen.org.

Could I be single for life? When I am productive and creative, I feel invincible and content. I think about Peter Parker, Spiderman. He can’t have a relationship because he has to save the world. He says that, “With great power comes great responsibility.” His sacrifice is heroic. I don’t think that I have to dump every girlfriend to be a hero. But, I love doing good things to help people. That’s my life.

I don’t know.