I just got back from a three-day staff retreat in Camp Tepeyac in Prescott. I like the people I work with, but sometimes it’s hard to spend time with each other outside of work. We work together all day, and it seems like too much to see them anymore at the end of the day. But this retreat reminded us that we are in fact friends, and that we shouldn’t see our jobs as just work.

It was a hard retreat for me. The first day and a half, I mostly felt angry. I just can’t have a job where my creativity is held back. It doesn’t matter if it is a “job for God,” I just can’t do it. In these same circumstances a few years ago, I would’ve been embarrassed by my anger, and I would’ve tried to change my attitude so I could be more in the spirit of a retreat. But I’m okay with being more raw now, and decided to prayerfully accept the feelings that spun inside of me. It wasn’t until the end of the second day that I felt any peace at all.

I dropped Bob off at the airport and drove back into work. I have a panic inside of me that the website gets hijacked or weirdos go on and post bad things. So I had to go in and make sure everything was good before I could have a relaxing weekend. Plus I picked up some discs with old journals on them so I can use some of the time this weekend to add them to the new version of supafly.com.

I don’t know what’s going to happen in my future. I know that it is important for me to launch camps.lifeteen.com, and to present my vision for ym.lifeteen.com. Both of these have a chance to make our ministry better. I also need to go part-time beginning in April so I have room to try out new projects. Once my six months of part-time is complete, I’ll have to prayerfully see where God leads me next. I might continue with Life Teen, or I could take the next step to something new.