I’ve been abused for two years. Ever since The Real World, I’ve been abused.

I trust that if I am sincere, other people will be sincere too. I ignore the fact that I am on MTV, because reminding myself of that always causes bigger problems. But, I was not chosen to be on RWNO because I am a boring and undesirable person, so I have confidence that people enjoy being around me. But sometimes, they cling too much.

Now, after two years of this, I can look back and site a dozen new friends who had wrong motives. They liked the idea of being with “Matt from the Real World,” not Matt from Hiawassee. Since I am kind and friendly, it made our friendness all the easier to solidify.

They could be teenagers, college kids, or even parents.

People can be pretty reckless in trying to manage the Real World side of me. Usually, hot girls will try to act stand-offish or “who cares”. But they always stick around longer than anyone who really doesn’t care. Some will act like it isn’t even a part of me, but their vanity and attention to the rest of the worldly makes their oblivion difficult to believe. Others will demean and insult any bit of excitement over me. That probably pisses me off the most.

I hate having to question people’s motives. Ugh.  This is something I never knew I’d have to deal with. I was never loaded with cash and I wasn’t a hot girl, so I never had to wonder why people wanted to be near me. I could retreat from it all and be a jerk like everyone else, but why ruin the party? I won’t let those few screw up my social life.