Doing the right thing makes my life fun and rewarding. But, I still struggle with doing the right thing. The rewards are long term, the struggles are immediate.

When I came back for Thanksgiving my freshman year of college, I was explaining to Mom the impossible amounts of work I have to put in just to pass my classes. She said, “if it were easy, everyone would do it.”

Is it easy to live for yourself. It is easy to create your own morals.

Argh…sometimes I feel like every hormone in my body is dancing at once. I get hit by a train of temptations and it takes all I have to do the right thing. I have to distract myself and get moving on something else. Like writing a journal.

Girls don’t fully understand what they are doing when they put on their clothes. If they put on any clothes at all.

This is an everyday thing for me. I could write about it in my journal, but it’s the same old story.